This two feelings kill me more

Do you ever have this kind of feeling?

meeting somebody that u were so closed with

but s/he just appear in front of u like s/he is ur normal friend

If u never, I could tell that the feeling suck

sadly, I dunno how to describe but it doesn't feel that "normal"

A little bit upset, well still can take it

Another one,

Holding the one and only dream since long time ago

Trying so hard to achieve it

yet God didn't see it that way

HE thinks that you are not putting in afford and you don't deserve the dream

I have this dream since few years ago

but only today I know we can't defeat destiny

hopefully that HE didn't treat me THAT bad 

at least let me enter Aus's Uni

My dream just gone

just like a balloon holding in my hand I would never let go

but now they are gone you can't hold it on anymore

I lost all the determination to study

heart really broken