I was a happy girl

I used to be a very happy girl
My life don't have much things for me to worry
My parent seldom argue
My brother always play with me
My Besties are awesome

I got clothes I want
I have room with pinky paint
I owned lot of barbie dolls!!!
I basically have everything I want

My life is always that happy
although there is sometime I got bully by others
and some issues in my High school
But I got bunch of Best friends

When I stepped into my college
I thought I will be very pathetic over there
However, I am so lucky to have Sab zai (one of my best fren) study with me at sunway
I met FANTASTIC housemates
And I met him
He take damn good care of me when I was there
without him
My life will be suck over the place
But it is too late to realize that I fell in love with him dunno SINCE WHEN

I am not a determinant girl
well, can see from I learn my drawing
I learn piano and din complete
I learn bakery and erm
my dad ate those cake and he still alive (cheer ^^)
I quite my CAT because OMG is really exhausted

UNTIL one day MY MUM allowed me to pursue my dream
My dream to further study IN UK
She always has this issue with me
because Uk is too far from Malaysia and the weather is bad for my asthma
Finally I got this chance
and I won't let it goes away


I become so DETERMINANT in my study
I study really quite HARD in order to go there
I never ever be like this
No matter how badly the environment is
I still endure with all these
I believe that I can make it as long as I put in effort and be determinant


Few weeks before my exam
I got myself into some love problem
He is the guy I want
He is the guy I put effort in too
He is also the one I determinant for to make our relationship work
but he just gone
I din really whine about this
I know he is really suffering to be with me
I just wish he will be happier now
I try to cheer up and work hard for my EXAM


Then, ON today
I just found out that I got the offer from Uk university
IS ACTUALLY FOR YEAR 1
my godness
for so many months I work hard for
is actually FOR NOTHING
I just can't take it



I know compare to lot of people out there
My life is still perfectly alright
I just can't take any impacts anymore
I am going to collapse real soon



I really really put a lot of effor in U and my study
First time I want something so badly
AND the return is hurt and disappointment
I basically lost everything I want to have
Everything
I barely forget How Happy I was...
I wish I could see a rainbow after all of these impacts on me